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NEW BRAIN versus OLD BRAIN

Where do I begin???

I’ve been meaning to completely transform my body into the one I want, the one it’s supposed to be naturally which is why I’m an Official Health Month Blogger for the month of February. Health Month is an fun online game where you choose your own rules and create teams to support one another in meeting your fitness & lifestyle goals.

One of my goals is to:

WEAR HOT PANTS THIS SUMMER,

sequined ones, in particular,

you know, in my music videos and onstage etc.

I’m excited and terrified to put myself out there but I know that my desire to please people and the responsibility I feel to my team is something that I can leverage to help me meet my goals.

Indeed I have been 100% Raw for 7 days, played my Triton synthesizer for 7 days & exercised for 7 days and I’ve lost about 5 lbs (I need to get a scale a.s.a.p.) and dropped 2 pants sizes already. I also feel much healthier & happier than I did a week ago when I ate those cheeseburgers you see in the video. 

Music Industry Thought:

I have been reluctant to put this more personal stuff on my site and need to keep reminding myself that despite the “industry standards” frequently shoved down the throats of female and male musicians alike,  my job is not to “Look Perfect At All Times” but rather to make meaningful work that makes a difference for others. 

Consumption

I have a lot more to say but I will keep this brief for now. One thing I will mention is that for many people food is symbolic. It doesn’t matter if it’s good for you or not or even if it tastes that great if it’s deeply rooted in your mind, a significant childhood ritual, then it is easy to gravitate toward especially when you feel low.

The other thing I have been thinking about is NEW BRAIN versus OLD BRAIN. I am becoming more aware of the dialogs between my old way of thinking and the new thoughts I am consciously implanting into my mind, which of course, is exactly what my cd SHUT UP DREAM CRUSHER is all about.

Thank you Buster for starting Health Month and thanks to my team The Fanatics and everyone who is putting themselves out there on the site. It’s very empowering to share this process.